Without a phone, but grateful

today marks the sixth day since I've last had a cellphone. At this day and age when even a young child could own a phone, here I am living in the ways that my parents have lived. It's really annoying and frustrating to not have a cellphone. For one thing, I am afraid to leave the house and do something fun. I do not even want to meet up with my boyfriend in case something happens to me and i have no means to tell him.

What is it like, I wonder, to meet your friends without a phone in your pocket? I suppose I have to wait patiently, and go to the rendezvous place on time. If the person you're meeting gets late, or decides to be fashionably late, then you suffer the consequences. You have no choice but to stay and wait, or to just leave.

where in the name of all that's holy are those guys??

Having no cellphone is weird. I graduated high school without any phone, but back then I didn't really mind since my friends back then were mostly sheltered girls so they weren't allowed to go outside. The ones that weren't sheltered, I usually just make a phone call before meeting up with them. But now it's different. Friends are inviting me here and there but I could only decline. I don't have a phone, sorry, I'm not coming. It's a lame excuse, I know.

It's also weird since I can't talk with my boyfriend just as easily. I have grown accustomed to him, always contacting each other, sharing things you see or just plain flirting when you're bored by everything you see. A cellphone breaches all the distances you have, but now I have nothing to keep in touch with.

Recently he's been on the net lately, and it is particularly funny since he's not much of a net junkie, unlike me.ahhn  Still I cannot help but get touched with his actions and thoughtfulness. He's having a stressful week, as he have told me, yet he manages to go online just for me. No matter how late it is, he'd make sure we're in touch. A brief chat, a hi, hello, before he grumbles miserably for being so sleepy, ironically he'd stay for an hour or more. He's a terrible chat mate unless he has a gossip he wanted to share. Still being able to talk with him at random time is much better than having a void between us, wondering where or how the other is faring.

I suppose this is how long distance relationship feels like. It's very lonely. I hope I get a phone soon